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Sunday!!!
13 August 2007
I feel so miserable all thanks to my ****** and ******.URGH! They're at it again! And this time i just could'nt fight back, i just let the hurtful words keep coming..the unfair circumstances unfold. Can't even go to church today..at all! Which is so miserable, i love praise and worship! It's like i can let loose and worship God, be myself and just soak in His presense with no worries.. Oh well, i cried again. But this time it was just a few teardrops..WEIRD! Normally i'd soak my pillow.. Well i guess this was one of the times when I'm so shocked out and angry that i cant even cry. I really can't take all this nonsense anymore! My ****** read my blog tittle which said 'Lonely SaturdAY' and said the most hurtful words i had heard, in a fairly long time.. I was so hurt.. He said things like 'what lonely saturday!' 'you got exams still want to go out?!?!' 'you think your friends are going to be there when you fail your exams?' 'lonely saturday..all crap lah!' blah blah blah.. I tell you, I had no intention or idea whatsoever about going out! I did'nt even wish i could. That was just a random tittle i chose. But i could'nt explain myself, i was just in shock with all the words. Those words felt like arrows, pinning me down, making me unable to move ar make a sound. Then my *** just had to make the situation worse, 'Whole day what you do?!? Then use the computer for so long, just now watch movie' Did she have any freaking idea that i was studying till like 3am the night before. And plus most of the day they were'nt even at home!!! I was studying, i was tempted to watch tv and use the com but i did'nt, i knew very well i had to study, and i did. Did they know all that? NO! They were out! They did'nt see anything! They had no proof! All they LOVE to do is accuse! eeeee I can't stand them anymore!!!! Today i have to stay home to study..again. The whole week packed with exams, friends teaching me, tuition and all the brainwrecking stuff. Everything aroung my is like a whirlwind, I'm trying to survive but it's pulling me in..sucking all my energy out. I'm seriously getting tired. Sometimes i can't even think so i just stone. Sometime i just wish I could grow up faster but when the times are good i would wish i'd stay a teeager for life. But who am i to run my life? .. Gotta go call Merri now. Probably the only thing which might make me feel a little better today..bye. . .