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enough of the shenanigans!
the girl next door 
Amanda Scaleewander! ;DD
i'm so fly.
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❤SH(OUT).
scream out loud
let's trace back my steps
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31 October 2010
i'll finally have time to read a good book.
29 October 2010
one of the major things on my to-do-list after my HSC is to read 'War and Peace' by Leo Tolstoy.
Epic in scale,War and Peace delineates in graphic detail events leading up to Napoleon's invasion of Russia, and the impact of the Napoleonic era on Tsarist society, as seen through the eyes of five Russian aristocratic families. Tolstoy himself, somewhat enigmatically, said of War and Peace that it was "not a novel, even less is it a poem, and still less an historical chronicle.
prince poppycock!!! dope man. plain dope.
it's always gonna be an uphill battle and i know sometimes i'm gonna have to loose.
27 October 2010
Ever since 2008 i told myself I wouldn't make new friends and most importantly I wouldn't fall for any guy. This goal resulted from my knowledge of an inevitable move I was going to make with the next 3 years. I guess I'm a very sentimental individual and the smallest of relationships mean the world to me. I appreciate people more than I can express and they impact me more than they know. This is probably why the forging of new comrade-ships or the inauguration of affections with certain individuals is something I have tried avoiding these couple of months especially.
Failed miserably no doubt.
New zone, new cell, new year.
It all brought new people. It created new bonds. It just strengthened my tie to this country.
I'm not complaining, I really love my Cell members of 5.3 and they have been an immense blessing. And the other random new people I've met are awesome too. But knowing.. at the back of my mind that I have to say goodbye soon is something I downright don't look forward to. Guy wise, I guess I wished i didn't fall for them as well. I mean it's scary. I've tried not liking guys by distracting my self with material pleasures..I've tried liking the worst kinda guy so he'd be easy to forget..I've tried to like a decent guy.. But ultimately I guess I'm just too much of a coward to really fall for a guy, knowing that I'd have to say goodbye.
Well I guess the point of this post was to say.. I'm a sucker for good company and that I fail copiously at saying goodbye and meaning it. Sometimes I wonder if this treasuring of relationships with people is a pro or a con because it can be tiring and draining at times. hah. We can loose friends as fast as we can find them. As we go on in life..how much more friends will we become friends with? Even the ones we never think we would befriend.. we just might. Remember the good times we all have together because time and reality is moving fast and the reality is that some of us will never see each other again. Probably only time will tell huh, who'll really stay in my life and who'll walk out.
The most beautiful discovery friends can make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.
or maybe carpe diem is something i should learn to take in my stride and live by.
or maybe carpe diem is something i should learn to take in my stride and live by.
HAHA merri i'll sing this to you the next time i see you :p
26 October 2010
AIYAH ZHAN HAI AHH
THIS IS WICKED AWESOME!!!!!!!!!joy unspeakable!
21 October 2010
I'm in a fight not physical
And I'm in a war
But not with this world
You are the light that's beautiful
And I want more
I want all that's Yours
Joy unspeakable that won't go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
'Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God
The miracle of Christ in me
Is the mystery that sets me free
I'm nothing like I used to be
Open up your eyes you'll see
it's songs like these that remind me how much i should count on God in times like these when im so emotionally, physically and mentally strained.
and everysingle word is able to minister and apply to you!
THAT HE'S THE JOY UNSPEAKABLE THAT WON'T GO AWAY.
and He gives me just enough strength to survive the day.. so I know i have to rely only on HIM daily ;]
and He gives me just enough strength to survive the day.. so I know i have to rely only on HIM daily ;]
see this is why i wanna work at the zoo ;]
in rememberance of my dear granny.
20 October 2010
BLESSED BIRTHDAY GRANNY!
I know you're ageless in heaven but I'll be celebrating your birthday in my heart.
Till that day comes I know you'll be there, supporting me all the way.. right there from that special place in my heart. And I know when I'm at the verge of giving up, if I listen closely I'd be able to hear your voice telling me to keep on working hard and to not to give up.I know you're ageless in heaven but I'll be celebrating your birthday in my heart.
I loved the way you were always so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to watch me grow up into a woman
I wanted you there at my wedding
I wanted you there when i got my first job
I wanted you there when i turn 20
I miss you
I miss your smile
I miss seeing you get all teary eyed when you got happy
I miss all the funny things you say
I shed tears every once in awhile because everything's so different now.
I want you to know my heart will never let you go.
I know you're in a better place but I still wish i could see your face.
I know you thought that all your nagging went to waste but secretly I took it all in and I practice all that you've thought me and I hope I'll learn to be as strong and as remarkable as you some day.
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to watch me grow up into a woman
I wanted you there at my wedding
I wanted you there when i got my first job
I wanted you there when i turn 20
I miss you
I miss your smile
I miss seeing you get all teary eyed when you got happy
I miss all the funny things you say
I shed tears every once in awhile because everything's so different now.
I want you to know my heart will never let you go.
I know you're in a better place but I still wish i could see your face.
I know you thought that all your nagging went to waste but secretly I took it all in and I practice all that you've thought me and I hope I'll learn to be as strong and as remarkable as you some day.
You're THE best!
I LOVE YOU Granny and I wish I could still say that in person.
Happy Birthday
♥,
Manday
Happy Birthday
♥,
Manday
perfect love casts out all fear.
18 October 2010
i want a guy who♥ would make me laugh no matter how silly he'd look in public
♥ rents all the chick flicks he knew and come over when I'm sick to remind me he loves me and to make me feel better
♥ would scream " I love YOU! " not caring who heard him
♥ would walk with me in the winter with a hot cocoa in one hand and my hand in the other [ if i was in a winter country..currently would be a super cold drink in hand and mine in the other hahahaha]
♥ continues to sing out loud to songs even if i call him a retard
♥ when i sing out loud, would call me retarded and then we'd laugh it off and he'd join me
♥ sits outside on my front steps with me just because there's nothing to do and wouldn't even say he's bored once
♥ would let me look like crap in a raggy ol' tee and shorts and still call me beautiful
♥ writes me little notes and let's me find them randomly
♥ comes to my house in the morning to wake me up on weekends
♥ takes me to the park and pushes me on the swings
♥ will not be shy around my family but acts like he's part of it
♥ argues with my friends that he loves me more
♥ will keep every single promise he makes
♥ would run up and hug me every time he sees me
♥ won't be scared to dance and act all weird in front of me
♥ will spend my birthday with me even if it means it be together with my crazy family
♥ will pick his friends over me sometimes and know i won't mind
♥ remembers our anniversaries before I do just to prove I'm special to him
♥ calls me at night right before i go to bed just so he knows his voice is the last thing i hear before i sleep
♥ pushes my hair away when it's in my face
♥ will carry my stuff when it's heavy
♥ wears my favorite shirt of his, just so I'd smile and say he looks good
♥ will know when something's wrong and will kiss me on the forehead and hug me tight instead of asking me what's wrong
♥ would give me his cardigan when it's cold and not make me feel guilty even if he doesn't have one for himself
♥ won't get jealous cause he knows i love him more than anything
♥
♥ would scream " I love YOU! " not caring who heard him
♥ would walk with me in the winter with a hot cocoa in one hand and my hand in the other [ if i was in a winter country..currently would be a super cold drink in hand and mine in the other hahahaha]
♥ continues to sing out loud to songs even if i call him a retard
♥ when i sing out loud, would call me retarded and then we'd laugh it off and he'd join me
♥ sits outside on my front steps with me just because there's nothing to do and wouldn't even say he's bored once
♥ would let me look like crap in a raggy ol' tee and shorts and still call me beautiful
♥ writes me little notes and let's me find them randomly
♥ comes to my house in the morning to wake me up on weekends
♥ takes me to the park and pushes me on the swings
♥ will not be shy around my family but acts like he's part of it
♥ argues with my friends that he loves me more
♥ will keep every single promise he makes
♥ would run up and hug me every time he sees me
♥ won't be scared to dance and act all weird in front of me
♥ will spend my birthday with me even if it means it be together with my crazy family
♥ will pick his friends over me sometimes and know i won't mind
♥ remembers our anniversaries before I do just to prove I'm special to him
♥ calls me at night right before i go to bed just so he knows his voice is the last thing i hear before i sleep
♥ pushes my hair away when it's in my face
♥ will carry my stuff when it's heavy
♥ wears my favorite shirt of his, just so I'd smile and say he looks good
♥ will know when something's wrong and will kiss me on the forehead and hug me tight instead of asking me what's wrong
♥ would give me his cardigan when it's cold and not make me feel guilty even if he doesn't have one for himself
♥ won't get jealous cause he knows i love him more than anything
♥
well, summed up.. i just want him to make me feel like i won him in the battle field of love.
the love of Jesus is amazing.
so long SUCKER!
Words cannot describe how elated I am to have completed my English Advanced course. FINALLY! After a long and grueling two years of utter torture and textual incarceration..literally. Well I officially have no more English for THE REST OF MY LIFE and no more anal texts to deeply evaluate. I am now more than willing to obliterate all of my English materials.
and my parting four words.
HA.LLE.LU.JAH!
and my parting four words.
HA.LLE.LU.JAH!
'NUFF SAID.
socially awkward moments
17 October 2010
- You check your phone, because you have nothing to contribute to the conversation.
- Wait for the right time to say something, you get interrupted. Twice
- Someone you vaguely know is walking in front of you. You maintain distance.
- Hold the door for some. They’re slightly too far away.
- Someone comes online, you say “hey”, they go offline.
- You go in for the high-five. Other person isn’t looking.
- Accidentally look someone in the eye. Pretend to look past them.
- You say something stupid. You play it down, but everyone sees your face going red.
- You say “hi” to someone. It comes out as a whisper.
- Your friends formed a circle while you were gone. You can’t fit and end up standing slightly askew.
- Waiting by yourself for friends. Pretend you’re texting.
- You tell a hilarious joke. Nobody laughs.
- You’re in class and you want to cough. Some other person just coughed, now you have to wait.
- Walk into the restrooms and the stalls are full; pretend you only came here to wash your hands then leave.
- The person in front is walking slightly slower than you are. You walk at an uncomfortable speed to get past them.
- AWKWARD SILENCE.
15 October 2010
I love you has 8 letters. But so does b u l l s h i t.this' my only message to you on your 18th birthday.
and FYI, it's been a mighty grawesome two years without you!
and FYI, it's been a mighty grawesome two years without you!
mon frere for life.
14 October 2010
debbbb. says: (11:12:25 PM)
whether u get A or C ...or like distinction with honours...i'll be here
whether u get A or C ...or like distinction with honours...i'll be here
as you always say affectionatey. . .
Best
Friends
Forever
Lor
hahahaha love you ;]
yup english has officially fried my brain.
three little birds once promised me...
Madness IS brilliance. period.
isn't it true though? without whacky ideas we wouldn't have a lot of the things we have today.
13 October 2010
♥ you granny!!!!
hey granny! ;] thanks for being in my dream today. and thanks Jesus for answering my prayer to show me how happy and well she is.
Well my dream started of with Kenneth coming to visit me cause he knew i couldn't go for cell.. so sweet huh hahaa anyways after he left i went to my room and my granny's coffin was in there and she started to rise from the dead. I was so shocked and happy and with that shakey voice i started to call for my Mum saying, " Mummy! Mummy! Granny woke up from the dead come see! Quick! Come now! ". But typically my mum was busy..I think she was hanging the clothes or something so my granny walked out of my room into the hall. Her face was a little rotten and like you know that brown juice from garbage.. well that was all over the floor.
BUT
The most interesting thing was that she started jumping up and down with another person and that other person was my granny as well. But the other one looked well and healthy and she was wearing what she always wore at home a long floral night dress. They were both jumping about and smiling and my mum was like, " Granny, follow the other Granny to the toilet to wash up."
And then i think i woke up. haha so anti climax
Anyways I told my Mummy bout this dream and she was like God's showing you that now Granny's got her incorruptible body and i was like YEAH :D So amazing. I was so teary eyed.I miss her soooooo much but i know she's in a place where she can't feel pain or suffering like she did here.
[and she also asked what else i dreamt about..and i was like oh Kenneth came to visit before he was off to cell cause he knew i couldn't go for cell..and my mum was like, " you ah.. why your dream no link?!"]
I LOVE YOU GRANNY. I ALWAYS WILL ♥
[haha im suck a sucker for sob stories im crying now tryping all this]
every bro on the go he's to know there's no accepted substitute!
even my penguin SUITED UP!
HAHAHAA
HAHAHAA
Lord help me live Your word before i actually share it.
12 October 2010
Oh Lord, you're beautiful,
Your face is all I seek,
For when your eyes are on this child,
Your grace abounds to me.
I want to take your word and shine it all around.
But first help me just to live it Lord.
And when I'm doing well, help me to never seek a crown.
For my reward is giving glory to you.
Oh Lord, please light the fire,
That once burned bright and clear.
Replace the lamp of my first love,
That burns with Holy fear.
this is a church in California.totez checking it out when I go over ;]
Have a mouth as sharp as a dagger but a heart as soft as tofu
The first thing that came to me when i saw this old chinese proverb was the ability to teach and be firm yet not put the person down. I deplore teachers or instructors who just say what they deem fit without a giving second thought as to whether their condescending remarks provoke a sense of disdain in the student and in turn send them down a spiral of destruction.
I think teachers who are genuinely sincere in the feedback they give and who follow up on how to correct the imperfection of any sort and then even work at it with each individual student is something i endorse fully.
Something innocuous as a simply remark back in Grade 1 of ballet made me just ardent about quitting. The instructor just kept throwing criticism after criticism at all of us but never really acted on them. So at age 6, with the most recalcitrant attitude i could muster, i decided to not go back to my ballet classes.
And yes till today I wish I had the chance to learn the beautiful art of being a ballerina.
So I implore any form of educator or even parents out there.. be gracious and make less children feel contrite about giving up after not being able to get something at their first few attempts.
Give constructive criticism that comes from the heart.
Dismantle the bridge shortly after crossing it
"I think I’m afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens."
well this whole life we lead is topsyturvy anyways..
just gotta go with the roller coaster ride that makes every inch of you go like WHOA!
11 October 2010
"People always say that, when you love someone, nothing in the world matters. But that’s not true, is it? You know, and I know, that when you love someone, everything in the world matters a little bit more."
— Jodi Picoult, Handle With Care
if fact it's just another ordinary day
10 October 2010
No New Year's Day to celebrate
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here's just another ordinary day
No April rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding Saturday within the month of June
But what it is, is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
No summer's high
No warm July
No harvest moon to light one tender August night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
Not even time for birds to fly to southern skies
No Libra sun
No Halloween
No giving thanks to all the Christmas joy you bring
But what it is, though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
Of my heart
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
Baby of my heart
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here's just another ordinary day
No April rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding Saturday within the month of June
But what it is, is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
No summer's high
No warm July
No harvest moon to light one tender August night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
Not even time for birds to fly to southern skies
No Libra sun
No Halloween
No giving thanks to all the Christmas joy you bring
But what it is, though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
Of my heart
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
Baby of my heart
while at the back of our minds..
we know that the person we truly l♥ve..
will ALWAYS be an exception.
we know that the person we truly l♥ve..
will ALWAYS be an exception.
love and laughter both start with 'L'
"I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it’s the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It’s probably the most important thing in a person."
Je n'ai rien oublié
09 October 2010
i vowed that when i got married that neither me nor my husband and most definitely none of my children should go to bed angry at one another or say anything to each other in the state of anger.
nah i'm not like in this gurly fantasy of marriage..
i was just doing some deep thinking.
you know how the saying goes, 'the power of life and death is in the tongue'
it is so true. it's more likely one remembers what words hurt you rather than the physical hurt.
and it's always the case that the most hurtful words are spouted out in the surge of anger and frustration.
and regardless of the copious amount of apologies the memory of the hurt that the words caused would most likely not go away.
and i also believe that family members or bestfriends or boy/girfriends shouldn't walk away angry or sleep angry and the other party cause you never know what would happen the next moment. Like if you were out and you got angry with your boyfriend and stormed off and he chased after he but got hit by a car and died.. you'd never be able to forgive yourself or forget how stupid it was to walk away angry and having said something hurtful just before something dreadful like that happens.
nah i'm not like in this gurly fantasy of marriage..
i was just doing some deep thinking.
you know how the saying goes, 'the power of life and death is in the tongue'
it is so true. it's more likely one remembers what words hurt you rather than the physical hurt.
and it's always the case that the most hurtful words are spouted out in the surge of anger and frustration.
and regardless of the copious amount of apologies the memory of the hurt that the words caused would most likely not go away.
and i also believe that family members or bestfriends or boy/girfriends shouldn't walk away angry or sleep angry and the other party cause you never know what would happen the next moment. Like if you were out and you got angry with your boyfriend and stormed off and he chased after he but got hit by a car and died.. you'd never be able to forgive yourself or forget how stupid it was to walk away angry and having said something hurtful just before something dreadful like that happens.
well so in conclusion. don't say stuff in the spur of moment when you're angry and always make sure before the day's over.. try and sort out the issue as best you can. You'd save yourself from regretting after it's too late to take those words back and you'd save the other party from bearing grudges or worse.. resorting to hating you.
How Jellyfish Work
08 October 2010
thelovelybones:
Jellyfish are about 98% water. If a jellyfish washes up on the beach, it will mostly disappear as the water evaporates. Most are transparent and bell-shaped. Their bodies have radial symmetry, which means that the body parts extend from a central point like the spokes on a wheel. If you cut a jellyfish in half at any point, you’ll always get equal halves. Jellyfish have very simple bodies — they don’t have bones, a brain or a heart. To see light, detect smells and orient themselves, they have rudimentary sensory nerves at the base of their tentacles.
© a bet-you-didn't-know-that post :]
would you regret we dint try?
marvin humes♡
04 October 2010
"If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart, I’ll always be with you.”
Winnie The Pooh.
01 October 2010
✪ happy children's day ✪
man i can't wait to have kids of my own i can love, spoil and nurture.
man i can't wait to have kids of my own i can love, spoil and nurture.