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enough of the shenanigans!
the girl next door 
Amanda Scaleewander! ;DD
i'm so fly.
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❤SH(OUT).
scream out loud
let's trace back my steps
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it's always gonna be an uphill battle and i know sometimes i'm gonna have to loose.
27 October 2010
Ever since 2008 i told myself I wouldn't make new friends and most importantly I wouldn't fall for any guy. This goal resulted from my knowledge of an inevitable move I was going to make with the next 3 years. I guess I'm a very sentimental individual and the smallest of relationships mean the world to me. I appreciate people more than I can express and they impact me more than they know. This is probably why the forging of new comrade-ships or the inauguration of affections with certain individuals is something I have tried avoiding these couple of months especially.
Failed miserably no doubt.
New zone, new cell, new year.
It all brought new people. It created new bonds. It just strengthened my tie to this country.
I'm not complaining, I really love my Cell members of 5.3 and they have been an immense blessing. And the other random new people I've met are awesome too. But knowing.. at the back of my mind that I have to say goodbye soon is something I downright don't look forward to. Guy wise, I guess I wished i didn't fall for them as well. I mean it's scary. I've tried not liking guys by distracting my self with material pleasures..I've tried liking the worst kinda guy so he'd be easy to forget..I've tried to like a decent guy.. But ultimately I guess I'm just too much of a coward to really fall for a guy, knowing that I'd have to say goodbye.
Well I guess the point of this post was to say.. I'm a sucker for good company and that I fail copiously at saying goodbye and meaning it. Sometimes I wonder if this treasuring of relationships with people is a pro or a con because it can be tiring and draining at times. hah. We can loose friends as fast as we can find them. As we go on in life..how much more friends will we become friends with? Even the ones we never think we would befriend.. we just might. Remember the good times we all have together because time and reality is moving fast and the reality is that some of us will never see each other again. Probably only time will tell huh, who'll really stay in my life and who'll walk out.
The most beautiful discovery friends can make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.
or maybe carpe diem is something i should learn to take in my stride and live by.
or maybe carpe diem is something i should learn to take in my stride and live by.