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enough of the shenanigans!
the girl next door 
Amanda Scaleewander! ;DD
i'm so fly.
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❤SH(OUT).
scream out loud
let's trace back my steps
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Love always has to be two sided.
06 December 2010
[[The problem with guys is they make you believe they love you when they don’t. The problem with girls is they make you believe they don’t love you when they do.The truth about girls; we act like we’re cold so you’ll hold us. Gossip isn’t a sin, it’s an art. The word “bitch” doesn’t mean much to us. When we say we’re fine, we’re usually not. Most of us fall in love way too easily. We’re never too old for sleepovers. All of us have a mean side, some of us just don’t show it. We’re confusing, and you’ll never have us completely figured out. Most of us like attention. We all like to hear we’re beautiful. No matter how many times we say we don’t care, we usually do. We’ll mess with your head. If we say that nothing’s wrong, something usually is. And just when you think you have us figured out, something will change and you’ll be all wrong.]]
“Maybe bad things happen because it’s the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like.” - Nineteen Minutes, Jodi Picoult.
I've been so frustrated; distracted; sad; miffed; anemic and just so out of it that i haven't eaten a single thing since Friday. Cause either I had no appetite or I was just feeling too nauseous that i puked out whatever little i managed to force myself to eat. I don't want this to be what happened the last time I'm just not strong enough and I know I just can't handle it anymore. There was this period of time i became so hard hearten i couldn't shed a tear but now i cry so easily again. I cried so much in church yesterday when God convicted me. He showed me how much of a jerk I've been. I was so woebegone yesterday and I was late because i met Elisha, RuiShan,Grace and Charmaine for another Christmas party meeting and worship had already started. As i started to get into the worship the Lord revealed to me that He was feeling the same way i was. So heavy hearted and sad because just like how a certain someone has been talking to me as and when he pleases is just like how I've been treating God. I go to Him only when I please or when it's convenient for me and then Sabrina said something that really made me break down even more..she said God told her, " I've been the faithful one in this relationship." and that is so true in my life as well. Jesus has been the faithful one and I've been neglecting my FirstLove and been seeking love in guys instead. And to know that Jesus feels the same way about me as i feel about that certain someone really made me feel so pathetic. I started to apologize profusely but I knew that wasn't enough. Just as that certain someone has hurt me I have hurt the Lord and what more because He first loved me and died for me. Jesus showed me how He has been waiting and hoping for me to set aside time to talk and fellowship with Him is just like how i always wait and hope for that certain one to give me some attention. And i just couldn't stop crying and saying sorry. I know i have to change and i know it will be hard to not seek for love in men but in God alone. But I also must remind myself to not stop loving just like last time because I won't be doing myself any favors. I just got to set my sights on the One above and trust that someday a decent guy will come along.
I've been so frustrated; distracted; sad; miffed; anemic and just so out of it that i haven't eaten a single thing since Friday. Cause either I had no appetite or I was just feeling too nauseous that i puked out whatever little i managed to force myself to eat. I don't want this to be what happened the last time I'm just not strong enough and I know I just can't handle it anymore. There was this period of time i became so hard hearten i couldn't shed a tear but now i cry so easily again. I cried so much in church yesterday when God convicted me. He showed me how much of a jerk I've been. I was so woebegone yesterday and I was late because i met Elisha, RuiShan,Grace and Charmaine for another Christmas party meeting and worship had already started. As i started to get into the worship the Lord revealed to me that He was feeling the same way i was. So heavy hearted and sad because just like how a certain someone has been talking to me as and when he pleases is just like how I've been treating God. I go to Him only when I please or when it's convenient for me and then Sabrina said something that really made me break down even more..she said God told her, " I've been the faithful one in this relationship." and that is so true in my life as well. Jesus has been the faithful one and I've been neglecting my FirstLove and been seeking love in guys instead. And to know that Jesus feels the same way about me as i feel about that certain someone really made me feel so pathetic. I started to apologize profusely but I knew that wasn't enough. Just as that certain someone has hurt me I have hurt the Lord and what more because He first loved me and died for me. Jesus showed me how He has been waiting and hoping for me to set aside time to talk and fellowship with Him is just like how i always wait and hope for that certain one to give me some attention. And i just couldn't stop crying and saying sorry. I know i have to change and i know it will be hard to not seek for love in men but in God alone. But I also must remind myself to not stop loving just like last time because I won't be doing myself any favors. I just got to set my sights on the One above and trust that someday a decent guy will come along.
