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enough of the shenanigans!
the girl next door 
Amanda Scaleewander! ;DD
i'm so fly.
that's basically all you need to know.underline italic bold |
❤SH(OUT).
scream out loud
let's trace back my steps
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09 January 2009
but.. since I'm a master at deceiving myself, why not carry on?i came to a recent realization. i don't.. what you may define as.. like anyone. really. i'm honestly not blogging this so the leaders in church will get off my back. or so that i can prove i'm 'holy'. this is an honest post. i seriously don't like anyone. maybe it's the result of past hurts or maybe it's after i watched twilight the other day. i realized that what i've felt for guys were just mere crushes or the rare few that i could've possibly liked. when i watched twilight i felt for the first time.. unconditional love. between bella and edward, something i honestly have never felt or seen before. i really am at a lost of how to describe what i felt, maybe.. just maybe, if you watch it you'll feel it. i have come to a decision that i'll wait. i'll wait for the day the man God chose for me walks into my life and not go around searching for him effortlessly and unnecessarily. i don't want to get into another whirlwind of liking someone and then getting hurt.
this is what i want to do. . but really.. i don't have the strength or the will power.
i shudder at the thought of getting hurt all over again. but it just seems that i lack something and it just fulfills that lack. gee.. this is all just ******* rubbish.