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enough of the shenanigans!
the girl next door 
Amanda Scaleewander! ;DD
i'm so fly.
that's basically all you need to know.underline italic bold |
❤SH(OUT).
scream out loud
let's trace back my steps
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❤Humans.
bloghoppin' |
heard from people my blog is dead, so here u go!
04 July 2008
just darn fed up of just going through the motions of my drab life. sick and tired of the things around me, it's like wearing a corset, it's sucking the air out of me! nothing's of any help. if it is, it's just momentary. i cant have momentary, i need permanent! i shall just stick to letting myself indulge in more permanent things now. i really cannot continue letting stuff bring me down over and over again by the same stupid things. I wish i could break free from life's corset but it doesn't seem to be made out of pathos. the paucity of love is seriously draining me out. love, i shan't even go there. in a world like what the world has become, love has lost it's meaning, lost it's perfection and it's ability to bring joy. education, an important factor in a city like Singapore, where we have nothing to export except brains, thus resulting in the over exhaustion of our cerebral. day in day out it's just stress that fills the air, and as you're breathing it in, it chokes you and there's no inhaler to make you feel better. all the facts you have to learn and later regurgitate on a few sheets of paper, which later then board a flight to England where they are marked. there's no turning back from there, your marks are final, your future set. if you do well u have a future, if you don't your labeled as ' failure', a Scarlet letter you'd have to bear in a society which is rapidly turning into people who just care about what you can achieve or help them achieve and nothing about your character or something more substantial then your resume. people will just see you as a lowbrow. but i guess that's what it is, it can't be changed, we just have to conform. yet again i want to reiterate my saying that love has lost depth and meaning. it's like salt which lost it's flavour. sorry, salt losing it's flavour seemed like the epitome of what i was trying to put forth. but yah. people say it so loosely, without thinking of the meaning of love. love means : deep, intense affection for a beloved person or thing. and yet we just say it to random people at random. what is becoming of love? wasn't it a shibboleth that it should be said only to the person you love? now it's being compromised. oh bother. venting out my feelings in a blogpost makes my English go wild. sorry for those who read my blog and have to go 'huh?!' . but hey look at the upside, you read my blog and can better your English at the same time.=] smiles. a smile is something plastered on my face to hide what I'm really feeling inside, it's like my built in mask. this masquerade party has to end someday, when? i really don't know. but i hope it's someday soon.